28/06/2016

16:32

Looking back on "old me" at the early of this year, good news that it's June already and I still have no job.

Waaaaay too different from what I have expected weeks before I graduated, confident lvl 99999++ and even told mum that I will go abroad by the end the year because next year I will have another yearly planned and I would not be able to go on that time. Ha! I love the spirit of my old me. What an optimistic gurl. love u bby. keep the spirit up. 

 

My sleep cycle is ruined because I got kind of headache for few times during this holy month. It's not good, at all. Because once that happened, I have no motivation to wake up, or doing anything else but sleep. My phone's notification keep ringing and popped up and it's nosy af. Most of the time I ignored the message, I ended up make some friends of mine mad at me because they think I'm rude *sigh*. I'm so glad I have no serious talk nor in the middle of romantic relationship with anyone at the moment, because with my current state at the moment, just by thinking about that is already exhausted me. 

 

I laughed and feel pathetic on myself, remembering that early on this month I broke my relationship with my then boyfriend because he just lazy af to send me message (it just good morning and good night, end) and once I give him the opportunity to explain, he just simply told me that "I'm so sorry it just me who's lazy.."

Thinking about it now, I even wonder how could I have such amount of time to be always with my phone like, almost 24/7 except when I go to sleep and eat? Dang. I'm so sorry (to you, my then boyfriend) I think you're right when you said adult are like that "when we are in relationship we just don't talk that much" lol I still can't accept the fact tbh, but my current state somehow agree with your words, so.. yea. I even feel sorry for anyone who send me message and got the fastest responses around 2 days after the message received. 

Anyway,

I..

Gajadi deh.