21/04/2016

12:38

After a very long consideration, I finally start to updating this blog again lol omg why do I was so depressed back then *cringe over myself*. This would be a bit long, so I warned you if you're not that kind of person who's enjoying long sentence, this post might not suit your taste (lel wtf am saying). 

January

It all started with my tradition to always sending new year's message to every people I consider closed to me. Especially that old and long distance friend who live miles apart from where I've been living now. Things went good as usual, they are still nice, and it just good to having a small talk with them like we used to before. But by that moment, I noticed that not all people are probably having the same thought like me. Some of them are still nice, but there's still an awkwardness between us --but it isn't that much that make me feel uncomfortable. In the other side, things seems pretty different with some people whom I considered were a really precious person for me. That was sad, actually. I remember trying so hard to keep in touch with them, yet they think it's useless and our friendship just not going to work. sigh. 

Jeong was having a birthday on early January (so is Rizka), so when we're hanging out I thought there would be a surprise party like they did to me on my birthday last year. But, no. Not at all. Then I feel bad for not doing anything for them (because I thought, they already spent too much on my birthday last year), so I ended up bought a cake for those two. It wasn't a great surprise because my tsundere personality make me look like there's no sincerity the moment I gave it. But I really did guys. Saranghaeyo. 

And it was sad, because the time was up for Jeong and Haejin program in Indonesia, so in the mid January, they went back to their country. There wasn't much tears (AT FIRST), but when the flight time was almost catch them up, we were in tears :( 

*) in this picture I really am sorry because Jeong doesn't look great as usual. Jelek banget rambutnya :(

And my thesis defense went pretty good! There were some drama on the day I presented it, tho. But my gut told me that I will passed this semester, so "all of those BS was just a joke", as I told myself when the profs declared that some of us probably not going to graduated this semester because blah blah blah and they're especially pointed it out on me because they said I am the only one the room who look calm when they said someone was not going to graduate this year. (WHY SHOULD I PANICKED? W H Y?)....and turned out it was just an act. (SEEE? I TOLD YOU!) Thank you for Funks! also Zaneta and friends who spent some money for bought me some cute balloons, crown and flowers. I never been so happy received so many flowers like that day *sobs*

Talking about the love of my life, I used to told myself that I will looking for "the one" on this year. I actually met a really good man, and I could say that I can matched him on so many level. He is nice, having a nice smile, good personalities, and his achievements is totally no joke compared to mine (education and career). He is the real definition of almost perfect and almost something something percent is quiet suits with my ideal type. It just also a good sign at first that he is one of that guy who could stay for more than 3 weeks talking to me (who's basically not really good at keeping up the conversation). But, it just me who's really interest on the flirt period, but started to make a distance once I found out this guy is expecting too much on our short close acquainted :( why. i used to like you too, tho.

"She's just like that, easily lost interest once she found out about something she doesn't like from the guy who likes her. What a dumbass." Dheska (22)

Thanks, Jeska. 

February

Graduated! I forgot to bring my invitation, so I ended up starving on the whole graduation session meanwhile people around me were eating their breads. stupid rosi is stupid. Words can't describe how grateful I am to be finally finished my study *sobs* and also the looooong journey from depok to klender. meh. I also am happy to had some people who gave their time to meet me on that chaotic graduating ceremony :') it was raining hard for few hours straight (there was even flood on balairung!) and everywhere look a bit dark and becek and blah. so hard to find your love one because everyone just jumbled everywhere like kobokan cendol. so not fun. so pusing. thank you for everyone who met me on that day! especially Kayla, because I'm too ignorant to think that grabcar or any kind of online service like that would pick me up (turned out the traffic jam was hell. no one gonna pick the order). Thank you! 

In the mid of February, I've had a great short trip with Niaga reg'12. It was a great 2days1night we've spent on Puncak. The villa was great, it has a great scenery! But it could be more greater if the hot water could spreading evenly not only in one room :") because it's cold af in the morning and it really hard to take bath during that time. sigh. But overall, it was great! Thank you!

Talking about the love of my life (HAHAH!) Here come another guy. He was nice and all, kind of person who never get bored listening all of my insecurities and shizz. He's kinda busy. Working as a chef on a michelin star restaurant make him just having about 3 hours of his time for me. Yes, you read it right. 3 hours. In a day. For 7 days. No holiday for a chef, ok. It was nice at first, thing went pretty good, like the first guy on January. I thought he's just a great thing to meet him. He's just too good to be true. I mean, wow what kind of nice person who can handle me on my worst? especially at the day when I started to being crazy and shizz once my insecurities and anxiety hit me hard like before? He really was great to handle me, I told you. It was my thought at first HAHA but nah. I think even a good person can be tired too. So, it just ended like that. 

But not so long after that, there was came another guy, with a happy go lucky personality and great great way to handle me on my first. Better than the second guy, I could say. But I'm just too stressed having no job and all, and so he is. So, there we are. Busy with our own, and forget that we use to have a platonic relationship before. meh. 

March

The whole month were filled up with joy and roller coaster mood with friends from Japan. They were nice, cute and blah blah blah. I love them sooooooooo much. I also met some great friends through this program. sigh. I will miss having in the same bed with them, having breakfast, dinner, class, etc :(

 

Talking about the love of my life on this month,..

It was a great great fling and puppy love I ever experience hehe. Arigatou-ne! (^^)

Guess who is "he" on the picture? :p

April

There was a time when my parent indirectly blame me to choose short course on March rather than started the job on that time. Because I am being a sloth once that program ended. No money, no life. Been trying to find a job again, but seems like the luck is not on me this time. Here I am now..... writing all of this thing, pretending to writing an important report so my parent think I am busy being an adult. Cool, huh?

Let's not talk about "the love of my life" on this month, because the latest one was kinda suck. No, not the one on February. But the one on early this month. Totally meh.

Ayo berdoa semoga aku dapat pekerjaan secepatnya. 

So I could buy myself a decent clothes and makeups sigh 

....i really am need a money to keep myself alive D: