08/03/2017

23:11

Later did I know it's 2017 already. 

I still remember (almost) crying in Kayla's car because I'm so fucked up with my work life, and she told me that I've been doing great enough to survive until late 2016. Bet that she wasn't really take my words seriously when I told her I almost has an urge to kill myself due to the stressed given by the work itself. 

It's not that hard work, actually. Like seriously, no. At all. Probably people who's comfortable working as in a slow pace environment and only get the sudden "busy period" would like this job so much. Additional notes that it also get paid enough compared to the location between my home and the the work location itself. Thought that I would save enough money and confidently saying to everyone I would go to visit their native country this summer. lol jokes on me. 

Good thing it's March already and after a long consideration and thoughts, also some pressure from that one who sit next to me on my cubicle, I delivered my resignation letter. It wasn't an easy path, tho. There's so much hate for about a week or more -I think it's still going up till the day I'm writing this. And as I always make an excuses to everyone, "sorry, it's been a roller coaster day lately." 

It doesn't mean my life goes wrong or went worst. No, not at all. 

It's been good, so far. The year started with some korean students coming and I've spent the last few days with them, it was good. And I've met one particular person (we called him as wee) who reminds me of him. The gesture, the vibe, and everything. It just so.. uh, how do I describe it? I like him. But not as wee. I like him because he resembles him. God I miss him so much -at that time. 

The second visit was coming from the most prestigious University from the most kawaii country. Didn't expect it would go this far. But this one is superb, because it makes me wondering what's the point I was so obsesses with oppa(s) back then. Quoting from Andin, my life is just a series of flings. lol 

Long story short, it was a great and pleasant meeting with all of those wonderful people. 

It also the moment that I have thought and considering about many things. Thought that I'm comfortable enough with my position at this moment, but there were also some parts that makes me want to just runaway and never going back. 

Meeting them was fun, and also heartwarming. But there is also the time that I expect to met their people in professional level too. SIGhHH. Life's is so damn hard. Maintaining adulthood is also harddd 

I would choose to read tons of journals and having an essay tasks rather than working and taking my responsibility as an adult :/